Kitteh

STOP IT! STOP IT NOW!

2008-12-11T02:25:32Z

so yeh
make it stop.
i totally became obsessed with Twilight.
make it stop.
some one shoot me.
pain, tears, loneliness.
and got fired from party city.
I FUCKING LOVE YOU DON'T YOU SEE THAT?!?!?
due to conflict in schedules.
but you didn't do this.
because i ~~have~~had two jobs.
I did this to myself.
but i don't care.
everyone says stay strong and he'll come back.
I make more at price chopper.
but you never are.
aka p chopps. lol
and it hurts more now because I know its true.
drew a picture for ah-non-e-muss
and I don't want to believe it.
but i'm going to keep this one to myself.
I don't want anyone else.
maybe put it on dAsecret.
I don't want to wait. I love you.
yeh.
I love you...
do you like this spacing every other line?
I love you......
i thought it would be cool.

nothing really good going on.

going to try to sleep.

damn migraine.

night.

So...

2008-10-19T01:10:12Z

I have monday off.
and tuesday;; but that's not important right now.
Mike may or may not be hanging out with Greg.
No problems there;; I'm not his ENTIRE life;; just his love.
My problem is;; wtf am I going to do?
I have no body to hang out with.
My only friends have school;; and I can tell Mike doesn't want me with him and Greg.
(Regarding the above comment;; Kaytee, you do have school, just in another state, which only makes it harder. =])
Maybe I'll go to the high school.
See what's going on.
Be attacked by thousands.
lol.
TJ might kill me.
But I need something to do.
hmmm....
I'm going to email Steve. =p
-ahem- I mean Mr. Honicki.
hahaahha
okies.
I just, I don't want to be alone.
=[
-tear-

Did you know?

2008-09-28T12:47:00Z

that i am so very much in love.

Update For Kaytee #1

2008-09-26T13:34:52Z

Since Kaytee says I don't update much, here you are.
Mikie moved out, two days ago. He doesn't like the atmosphere, neither do I.
It's really upsetting, it really hurts.
I want him back here. I miss him.

I have to get ready to go to work. 11-73o. I'll edit it later.

<3

Is it bad....

2008-09-14T23:16:46Z

that I get jealous when I know he used/uses his computer?

Cheezburgers...

2008-08-24T17:44:14Z

So this is just a long list of stupid, yet adorable, things from h3r3. lawlz.

more animals

more animals
DEHVERSITEH!

more animals

more animals

more animals

more animals

more animals

more animals

more animals

epic win. =]

^^

2008-08-01T19:08:54Z

happy.

...they dont love you like i love you...

2008-07-09T16:36:45Z

it hurts.
but im going to do it.
im going to be strong.
im going to work harder then ever.
because i want this.
i want you.
i know i caused a lot of pain.
and i tried to fix it.
but im going to try harder.
this will be the last time i loose you.

i cant do this alone.
but i have no one to hold me.
i have no one close enough to keep me sane.
i only have you.
i can't ask you to help me with this.
because you are part of this.
how could i ask you to hold me while i cry over you?
while i dont eat for days and throw up nothing?
i cant ask that of you.

you will always be my friend first.
you always have been.
but now having to go back to it is just so hard.
i just want you to be able to stand by my side.
but im the reason you left.
the pain i caused, the hurt i inflicted.
none of it intentionally.
but that cant save me now.

im working hard.
so hard.
to win you back.
i will fight for you.
i will show you my feelings are true.
my love unconditional.
i can be strong without you.
but i indulge too much of the pleasure of you at my side.

no one will understand that i may need you more then i have ever needed anything.
but i will do without.
because you are important to me.
i want to see you the second i get home.
to be in your arms,
and have us know,
that these few days.
i made it.
i resisted.
i loved you.
and kept my distance.

to feel your kisses, so sweet.
to feel you hugs, so tight.
to feel your love, so warm.
and know.
that forever is ours.
if we believe.
and i do believe.
in my heart.
we will be together again.
we will be happy again.
and we will never need another source of happiness,
for we have each other.

"he loves her, it's as simple as that. And yet, it's more."

I will love you.
long past the time when my heart stops beating.
all i ask of you is to act back on your love,
and take me back.
ive told you i will work for it.
i will.
just be mine again.
giving you up hurts more then death.
because knowing you love love me
and yet, will not be with me.
knowing you loved me enough to ask me out,
when i already had a boyfriend.
and now.
we are turning away from each other.

i made you a promise.
and i will keep it.
i will change.
i will stop.
all i ask is for you to come back.
for you to act on your love,
and be mine again.

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine. "

i love you.

why?

2008-07-09T13:01:32Z

I love you.

HEYYYYY!

2008-06-23T22:41:36Z

Doyou have a facebook?
are you my friend?
do you like my artwork?

GO NOW!!!

kthnxbai

if you havent noticed...

2008-06-23T02:03:27Z

I fell in love with a livejournal.
Random. I know.
But it's really cool.
Like POSTSECRET and DeviantArtSecret, "but for the little people"
and they have a point.
POSTSECRET and DeviantArtSecret go through which ones the will post, that will catch the most attention or are appropriate.
I'm submit one.
you should too.

here you go!

HSODHGSKVDN

2008-06-18T19:36:17Z

HOLY FUCKING HELL!
WHAT THE FUCK IS HER PROBLEM??

she wants me to put all my clothes away, but i cant cuz there's no where to put it because i have no room in her room because a whole bunch of shit she has to go through is in mine and mikes room.

KILL HER!
first one gets 100 dollars.

Maybe....

2008-06-17T07:41:50Z

whether or not you believe this
I don't care.
As many of you know,
I've always believed in ghosts, spirits, etc, etc.
And I have always had migraines that bring horrible pain,
24/7,
and many times bloody noses,
excruciating pain,
and sometimes, i
ncapabilities of moving.
And no cure can be found,
because nothing is wrong.

But I may have found the problem, and there will never be a cure.
It may be the emotions and auras from others.
The girl on the show gets the same migraines I do.

I might not be alone.
And I'm going to look into this.
I'll be up all night.

THE EPiSODE

....just maybe....

yeh....

2008-06-09T01:41:44Z

Iraq....

2008-06-07T22:22:11Z

Me and Mike was playing GH3.
I can now play on hard.
In Co-op.
as the bass player.

YEY!

he loves me....

2008-06-06T02:49:26Z

ok so the background to this;;
mike got a random IM from someone me him and tj didn't know.
so they we're asking each other questions and this is one asked.
mike is red

-sqwee!-

in other news;;
tj got a job. and i still dont have one.
-dies inside-

...he really loves me...<3

Rosa!

2008-06-05T02:44:13Z

eet's you birfday!
eet's your birfday todayyyy!
happeh birfday!
from all your frined's in ashwee's mind. =]

I absolutely love him love...

2008-05-30T20:54:46Z

Mike's home
(currently at work =[)
Half of my lawn has been mowed.
My cat is licking me...but like my foot and my bewb, wtf?
I can txt mike for free.
He's home.
He got me a ton of gifts.
(if you see him, slap his arm or something.)

I have become obsessed with watching "Deadliest Catch" on Discovery.
I've also been watching a lot of Bravo.

Mike's bringing over more anime for me to watch.
and he's going to let me start a WoW account.
And also paying for my Dragon Amulet on Dragon Fable =]

We had a talk.
I said as long as I don't lose him to video games,
he can spend his money on whatever he wants.
I just don't want to be forgotten,
but can you blame me?

I'm becoming more of a girl.
I got a purse.
But it's pretty.
and as Kaytee knows,
I have more skirts. [1]
So yeh,
Mike wins.

....when he smiles.

....

2008-05-20T08:06:11Z

mike's leaving for South Carolina tomorrow around 3 pm.
Maybe that's why i can't sleep.
He's asleep on the phone right now.
i'm trying not to wake him up.
i feel so alone and empty now that he's not sleeping next to me.
he asked if he could come over around 1o pm.
then got bitched at for not having me come with him.
so no, he didn't come over.
we both thought i couldn't go cuz he had to leave.
but he had nothing to do when he got there.
im so bored without him here.
he doesnt come home till wednesday. i may not see him till after he gets out of work on thrusday.

i dont know if im going to go to the concert tonight.
i should.
mike told me to.
he knows i love singing.
i harass him that we're going Alt Prom.
and he has no choice. =]

oh. and i have wireless now.

enough for now.
signing off at 4o5 am. yey.

Quick Update

2008-04-29T17:03:06Z

I don't relly have the time to say anything;;
since I have TONS!!! of work to do.

BTS;; Breaking The Silence
it was good. saw everyone.
dragged mikie.
had a play fight with gregg.
miss the old days of me and him goofing off// BEFORE we dated && after
I like being friends and hanging out with him...
anywho...
i really don't think any one really cared I was there.
and i left early, headache was my excuse
i couldn't take being in there.
i was having an episode
sorry kaytee!!!

sad Jaytee wasn't there, i want to meet himmm!!!

uhmmm yeh.
anywho.

ttyl.

[[gitchi gitchi goo<33]]

'WEFOI[sghosjf [pissed]

2008-04-15T16:15:46Z

2 weeks of class left.
god knows how many papers I haven't done for humanities.
I'd rather help Mike pass and graduate so we can be together with less stress then the two us freaking out =]
so much homework NO time what-so-ever.

wayne's going to help with papers.

GOOD STUFF
| |<<<this close to having my liscense i drive every weekend, wherever i want to go, as long as mike is with me. just the two of us. i think sat i took 5 people in a 4 seater... [mike.me.temple.tj.BBB] there was like NO room for BBB then monday i took miranda to the mall and we spent like... 4 hours there. and saw "horton hear's a who". i <3 jojo. i wants to marry him. he's the cutest who alive! even if he does live on a speck "a persons a person, no matter how small." i'll update more.... =]

that would totally work...

2008-04-07T16:02:30Z

I have nothing better to do =]

Dear Leigh
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it when I quoted Santa in your apartment and I saw you carve you initials into my avocado . I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your grades from college as a memory. You should also know that I am better off without a passionate interest for mice.
Greetings to your freaky family.
Ashwee.

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your el-jay).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.
___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The last letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your suicide note
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your neighbour Martin
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The first letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

I miss the old times...

2008-04-03T15:38:09Z

I miss it when I used to hang out with Hannah and Leigh.
Back before boys, back before when all we cared about was each other.
I miss the days when I'd look at them and think "if only I could kiss them...and it not seem wrong".
I miss it when me and Leigh would have sleepovers in the middle of the week, and we'd make out then cuddle and go to bed, then I'd steal all the covers and she'd fight back.
when I'd hang out with Hannah for a weekend and we'd eat potato chips and cream cheese. and we'd sleep on her couch ill like... 1 pm. then get up and eat more food.

i miss it all. i miss being ~~friends~~ sisters

here lies jinx

2008-04-02T23:07:54Z

the ghost of the girl formally known as Jinx lies here...

I love

2008-03-24T17:09:02Z

you both.

<3

and btw... i lost my voice.... randomly.