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so yeh
make it stop.
i totally became obsessed with Twilight.
make it stop.
some one shoot me.
pain, tears, loneliness.
and got fired from party city.
I FUCKING LOVE YOU DON'T YOU SEE THAT?!?!?
due to conflict in schedules.
but you didn't do this.
because ihavehad two jobs.
I did this to myself.
but i don't care.
everyone says stay strong and he'll come back.
I make more at price chopper.
but you never are.
aka p chopps. lol
and it hurts more now because I know its true.
drew a picture for ah-non-e-muss
and I don't want to believe it.
but i'm going to keep this one to myself.
I don't want anyone else.
maybe put it on dAsecret.
I don't want to wait. I love you.
yeh.
I love you...
do you like this spacing every other line?
I love you......
i thought it would be cool.
nothing really good going on.
going to try to sleep.
damn migraine.
night.
make it stop.
i totally became obsessed with Twilight.
make it stop.
some one shoot me.
pain, tears, loneliness.
and got fired from party city.
I FUCKING LOVE YOU DON'T YOU SEE THAT?!?!?
due to conflict in schedules.
but you didn't do this.
because i
I did this to myself.
but i don't care.
everyone says stay strong and he'll come back.
I make more at price chopper.
but you never are.
aka p chopps. lol
and it hurts more now because I know its true.
drew a picture for ah-non-e-muss
and I don't want to believe it.
but i'm going to keep this one to myself.
I don't want anyone else.
maybe put it on dAsecret.
I don't want to wait. I love you.
yeh.
I love you...
do you like this spacing every other line?
I love you......
i thought it would be cool.
nothing really good going on.
going to try to sleep.
damn migraine.
night.
- Mood:pain? damn cramps
and tuesday;; but that's not important right now.
Mike may or may not be hanging out with Greg.
No problems there;; I'm not his ENTIRE life;; just his love.
My problem is;; wtf am I going to do?
I have no body to hang out with.
My only friends have school;; and I can tell Mike doesn't want me with him and Greg.
(Regarding the above comment;; Kaytee, you do have school, just in another state, which only makes it harder. =])
Maybe I'll go to the high school.
See what's going on.
Be attacked by thousands.
lol.
TJ might kill me.
But I need something to do.
hmmm....
I'm going to email Steve. =p
-ahem- I mean Mr. Honicki.
hahaahha
okies.
I just, I don't want to be alone.
=[
-tear-
- Location:Bed
- Mood:
I love Mike so very much. =]<3 - Music:99.5 WRVE dah river. =p
- Location:Bed
- Music:Colbert Report
Mikie moved out, two days ago. He doesn't like the atmosphere, neither do I.
It's really upsetting, it really hurts.
I want him back here. I miss him.
I have to get ready to go to work. 11-73o. I'll edit it later.
<3
- Location:Bed
- Mood:
tired - Music:Walker, Texas Ranger
- Location:Mike's
- Mood:in pain =\
- Music:Video games, talking, dog....
but im going to do it.
im going to be strong.
im going to work harder then ever.
because i want this.
i want you.
i know i caused a lot of pain.
and i tried to fix it.
but im going to try harder.
this will be the last time i loose you.
i cant do this alone.
but i have no one to hold me.
i have no one close enough to keep me sane.
i only have you.
i can't ask you to help me with this.
because you are part of this.
how could i ask you to hold me while i cry over you?
while i dont eat for days and throw up nothing?
i cant ask that of you.
you will always be my friend first.
you always have been.
but now having to go back to it is just so hard.
i just want you to be able to stand by my side.
but im the reason you left.
the pain i caused, the hurt i inflicted.
none of it intentionally.
but that cant save me now.
im working hard.
so hard.
to win you back.
i will fight for you.
i will show you my feelings are true.
my love unconditional.
i can be strong without you.
but i indulge too much of the pleasure of you at my side.
no one will understand that i may need you more then i have ever needed anything.
but i will do without.
because you are important to me.
i want to see you the second i get home.
to be in your arms,
and have us know,
that these few days.
i made it.
i resisted.
i loved you.
and kept my distance.
to feel your kisses, so sweet.
to feel you hugs, so tight.
to feel your love, so warm.
and know.
that forever is ours.
if we believe.
and i do believe.
in my heart.
we will be together again.
we will be happy again.
and we will never need another source of happiness,
for we have each other.
"he loves her, it's as simple as that. And yet, it's more."
I will love you.
long past the time when my heart stops beating.
all i ask of you is to act back on your love,
and take me back.
ive told you i will work for it.
i will.
just be mine again.
giving you up hurts more then death.
because knowing you love love me
and yet, will not be with me.
knowing you loved me enough to ask me out,
when i already had a boyfriend.
and now.
we are turning away from each other.
i made you a promise.
and i will keep it.
i will change.
i will stop.
all i ask is for you to come back.
for you to act on your love,
and be mine again.
"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine. "
i love you.
- Location:Lake George
- Mood:
awake
- Location:Lake George
- Mood:
my body wont act normal - Music:Nothing. But the sound of shattered hearts pulling itself together.
are you my friend?
do you like my artwork?
GO NOW!!!
kthnxbai
- Location:Mike's room
- Mood:CRAMPS T_T
Random. I know.
But it's really cool.
Like POSTSECRET and DeviantArtSecret, "but for the little people"
and they have a point.
POSTSECRET and DeviantArtSecret go through which ones the will post, that will catch the most attention or are appropriate.
I'm submit one.
you should too.
here you go!
- Location:Mike's room
- Mood:ehnnnn
- Music:AC
WHAT THE FUCK IS HER PROBLEM??
she wants me to put all my clothes away, but i cant cuz there's no where to put it because i have no room in her room because a whole bunch of shit she has to go through is in mine and mikes room.
KILL HER!
first one gets 100 dollars.
I don't care.
As many of you know,
I've always believed in ghosts, spirits, etc, etc.
And I have always had migraines that bring horrible pain,
24/7,
and many times bloody noses,
excruciating pain,
and sometimes, i
ncapabilities of moving.
And no cure can be found,
because nothing is wrong.
But I may have found the problem, and there will never be a cure.
It may be the emotions and auras from others.
The girl on the show gets the same migraines I do.
I might not be alone.
And I'm going to look into this.
I'll be up all night.
THE EPiSODE
....just maybe....
- Location:Bed
- Mood:
sick - Music:TV
- Location:mike's kitchen
- Music:uhhh? Vin's gf
Me and Mike was playing GH3.
I can now play on hard.
In Co-op.
as the bass player.
YEY!
- Location:Mike's Bed
- Mood:
confused - Music:Mike's feet on the floor.
mike got a random IM from someone me him and tj didn't know.
so they we're asking each other questions and this is one asked.
mike is red
-sqwee!-
in other news;;
tj got a job. and i still dont have one.
-dies inside-
...he really loves me...<3
- Location:Bed
- Mood:
>. - Music:Disturbed's New CD
eet's your birfday todayyyy!
happeh birfday!
from all your frined's in ashwee's mind. =]
- Location:almost in mike's arms
- Mood:ehnn?
- Music:RK - ending theme
Mike's home
(currently at work =[)
Half of my lawn has been mowed.
My cat is licking me...but like my foot and my bewb, wtf?
I can txt mike for free.
He's home.
He got me a ton of gifts.
(if you see him, slap his arm or something.)
I have become obsessed with watching "Deadliest Catch" on Discovery.
I've also been watching a lot of Bravo.
Mike's bringing over more anime for me to watch.
and he's going to let me start a WoW account.
And also paying for my Dragon Amulet on Dragon Fable =]
We had a talk.
I said as long as I don't lose him to video games,
he can spend his money on whatever he wants.
I just don't want to be forgotten,
but can you blame me?
I'm becoming more of a girl.
I got a purse.
But it's pretty.
and as Kaytee knows,
I have more skirts. [1]
So yeh,
Mike wins.
....when he smiles.
(currently at work =[)
Half of my lawn has been mowed.
My cat is licking me...but like my foot and my bewb, wtf?
I can txt mike for free.
He's home.
He got me a ton of gifts.
(if you see him, slap his arm or something.)
I have become obsessed with watching "Deadliest Catch" on Discovery.
I've also been watching a lot of Bravo.
Mike's bringing over more anime for me to watch.
and he's going to let me start a WoW account.
And also paying for my Dragon Amulet on Dragon Fable =]
We had a talk.
I said as long as I don't lose him to video games,
he can spend his money on whatever he wants.
I just don't want to be forgotten,
but can you blame me?
I'm becoming more of a girl.
I got a purse.
But it's pretty.
and as Kaytee knows,
I have more skirts. [1]
So yeh,
Mike wins.
....when he smiles.
- Location:Bed
- Mood:ho-hum
- Music:Deadliest Catch
Maybe that's why i can't sleep.
He's asleep on the phone right now.
i'm trying not to wake him up.
i feel so alone and empty now that he's not sleeping next to me.
he asked if he could come over around 1o pm.
then got bitched at for not having me come with him.
so no, he didn't come over.
we both thought i couldn't go cuz he had to leave.
but he had nothing to do when he got there.
im so bored without him here.
he doesnt come home till wednesday. i may not see him till after he gets out of work on thrusday.
i dont know if im going to go to the concert tonight.
i should.
mike told me to.
he knows i love singing.
i harass him that we're going Alt Prom.
and he has no choice. =]
oh. and i have wireless now.
enough for now.
signing off at 4o5 am. yey.
- Location:bed
- Mood:
cold - Music:tv
I don't relly have the time to say anything;;
since I have TONS!!! of work to do.
BTS;; Breaking The Silence
it was good. saw everyone.
dragged mikie.
had a play fight with gregg.
miss the old days of me and him goofing off// BEFORE we dated && after
I like being friends and hanging out with him...
anywho...
i really don't think any one really cared I was there.
and i left early, headache was my excuse
i couldn't take being in there.
i was having an episode
sorry kaytee!!!
sad Jaytee wasn't there, i want to meet himmm!!!
uhmmm yeh.
anywho.
ttyl.
[[gitchi gitchi goo<33]]
since I have TONS!!! of work to do.
BTS;; Breaking The Silence
it was good. saw everyone.
dragged mikie.
had a play fight with gregg.
miss the old days of me and him goofing off// BEFORE we dated && after
I like being friends and hanging out with him...
anywho...
i really don't think any one really cared I was there.
and i left early, headache was my excuse
i couldn't take being in there.
i was having an episode
sorry kaytee!!!
sad Jaytee wasn't there, i want to meet himmm!!!
uhmmm yeh.
anywho.
ttyl.
[[gitchi gitchi goo<33]]
- Location:Printmaking Room
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Scatman;; Scatman's World
